My experience with esports has been a rollercoaster. I’ve always been interested in playing, but never really interested in watching. However, my first ever experience with esports, was going to MCM Comic Con in London and seeing a Hearthstone tournament live. It was thrilling, and I had to be pulled away by my boyfriend at the time to go see other things. I am also interested in Overwatch League, and occasionally try to drop in and watch League matches. Not so much for the excitement, but to try and learn something from them. Unfortunately, I suck and I’m stuck in bronze on both Overwatch and League. However, I don’t dedicate myself to it fully the way others do, and I probably should if I want to succeed. Anyway, back to the main story! My next experience came many many years later, when I finally went to University. I went to the fresher’s fair, carrying around my bag to pick up all the free goodies, very nervous and not knowing what to expect. I came across the esports society, and to my surprise, there was a girl leading the table. I was so excited. I instantly went over and got to talking, took their card and went on my way. As soon as I got home, I joined their discord excitedly, and was soon making friends with everyone. Then, signups came for University tournaments such as NSE and NUEL. I was excited and nervous, because I knew I was bad. I was put on teams with people so much better than me, and it made me ashamed of my own progress. League of Legends tournaments were a great experience for me. I got on well with my team, we played for fun, and no one got salty. It was brilliant, and I would definitely do it again. Overwatch on the other hand, was not such a great experience. Unfortunately, I was the only girl on my team, and I experienced a lot of sexism. Of course I played healer, ‘because I’m a girl’. Not only that, but I was told how to play my hero, even though I had countless amounts of hours on them. I knew what I was doing, but was treated as if I’d never touched a game in my life. It was embarrassing, and made me want to quit then and there. I persevered, trying my hardest for myself, but also out of spite. They forced me to play the same hero over and over, even if I knew the situation called for a different one. In the end, I made my own decisions and rebelled against their screaming voices in my ear, and played who needed to be played. In the end, we won the games because I made the right calls. We didn’t get very far into the tournament, but I was pleased regardless with my own efforts and my ability to stand on my own two feet. This was definitely a mild deterrent for me in esports, and I wondered if there was ever going to be a place for me in the community again. They accepted me and weren’t mad at me for being bad at the games, so I was grateful for that. However, it turned out that they weren’t the greatest of people, and I soon left that community. Now, I am onto bigger and better things. At the moment, I am desperately trying to climb out of bronze in league of legends. That is my biggest target. I have done it only once, and I will do it again! My main roles are ADC and support, so I feel I have to rely on the others to cooperate and not throw the game, which is very hard to do when you have a Yasuo on your team! They are the two hardest roles in ranked to play, as you are not necessarily going to carry the whole team the way a Darius might, or a fed Fizz. You just have to pray and hope for the best, that all the bananas you throw as Soraka will work in your favour! I plan to get back into ranked on Overwatch again soon, but I find it difficult to focus on two ranked games at the same time, so I desperately want to get into silver, so I can eventually make my way to gold. Luckily, I have a very good friend helping me out on my journey, so it isn’t always so stressful! As of late, I have joined the wonderful community of Gameress. As the numbers grow and the community continues to flourish, there are grand plans to make competitive teams in as many games as possible! There are already League, Overwatch and Rocket League teams in the works. I can't wait to feel accepted, understood and empowered in a woman's team!
Why The Binding of Issac: Rebirth is more than just a bullet hell: Part one I have been playing Binding of Isaac for a couple of years now. I’ve sunken hundreds of hours into it, and despite that, I’m still nowhere near completing the game. Maybe that’s just because I’m bad at it, but who knows. When you initially play Binding of Isaac, or even watch a video of gameplay, or look at pictures, you will automatically just assume it’s just a rogue-like bullet hell with perma deaths. But I assure you, it is so much more than that. If you watch the beginning animation, that lays out the story pretty solidly. Isaac and his mother, live alone in a house. His mother, is very religious, and one day hears voices of God telling her that her son is a sinner, and he must be punished for his actions. To guarantee “God’s love”, she agrees that Isaac is an abomination, and strips away his toys, his clothes, and eventually it all leads up to her trying to kill him, where he jumps down a trap door into the basement. There are a series of cutscenes that you unlock by playing the game, unlocking new characters, mobs and floors. It takes a while to get into the nitty gritty of it all, but when you do, it’s so worth it. First, let’s examine the ‘final’ bosses. To start with, we have It Lives. This boss is the first final boss that you will come across, and one of the easier ones to handle. You will have to beat this boss a significant amount of times to be able to unlock other floors, so it’s not too hard to get used to. For reference, this is what it looks like. This boss has been said to resemble Isaac as a fetus, and shows him in the womb, which, by completing the boss fight, you are technically killing Isaac. When you fight this boss, you can hear the mom’s heartbeat, and on top of that, she says his name throughout the fight, rather sternly. At the end of the fight, she fires out brimstone attacks. If Isaac is hit by these attacks, you can hear her laughing at him. The music that plays during this fight is called Ventricide. Although not a real word, it’s a play on the word ventricle (one of the two large chambers of the heart) and the suffix -cide, which indicates an act of killing. The suffix is used in other music tracks from the game, like Infanticide, Matricide and Hericide. If you have The Bible equipped in game, you can also kill It Lives instantly. If we deconstruct this, this could mean that because It Lives is representative of Isaac, that by using the Bible, it is able to kill him instantly because he is an abomination, a sin, he is the root of all evil, as Isaac’s mother believed. Have I blown your mind yet? Are you interested in the game? Well, hold onto your horses as we move onto the next boss in the game! After this, you have two pathways: Sheol, or the Cathedral. Since It Lives is not sugar, not spice and certainly not all things nice, let’s talk about Sheol, and the boss fight that takes place there: Satan. (I hope you imagined that coming out of a booming microphone, right into your ear. I know I did.) In Hebrew, Sheol is translated to “the place of the dead.” Sheol is the 9th floor in the game, which in Dante’s Inferno, one of the first books to describe hell in detail, describes the 9th layer of Hell as frozen. Because of this, when Isaac dies in Sheol, on his last will, in the corner it says that he died in some cold place. Additionally, Dante’s Inferno says that the 9th layer is where Satan himself is imprisoned, hence why the boss fight takes place on the ninth floor (if you don’t have Curse of the Labyrinth.) The music that plays in Sheol is named ‘Duress’ which is defined as intimidation or coercion, and usually signifies an act of violence, too. When the fight starts, Satan says Isaac’s name, but reversed and with heavy distortion. Could this be suggesting that Isaac’s mum is the sinner, the devil? The music that plays during this boss fight is called Hericide. Hericide is defined as the act of killing one’s master, lord or teacher, which says a lot about the relationship Isaac and Satan have. From the point of view of the mother, it signifies that Isaac truly is a follower of Satan, and that he is his master. However, what does that make Isaac after he’s killed Satan? Moving over to the more angelic side of things, let’s examine the Cathedral, and the boss fight that resides there. The boss you fight there is Isaac. You may be wondering, ‘oh my god, I have to kill… me?’ and to be honest, that’s not the craziest thing here at all. When you are in the boss fight, the music that plays is called Infanticide, which is the act of killing a child or newborn. Isaac himself is only a young child, if not just a toddler, therefore the name of the song is very telling. There are only two instances in the whole game where the boss doesn’t explode into a pile of gore, and this is one of them. Instead, when ‘killed’ he becomes an angel, and has a smile on his face. This could suggest several things. Especially since throughout the boss fight, he starts by crying during phase one, curled up in a ball on the floor. By phase two, he looks scared, with tears down his face. By phase three, he wears a smile on his face. This could be a suggestion that, at first, he feared death, but the closer he gets to that moment, it provides clarity and peace to him, and he realises that by dying, he is helping himself, which is something that is seen throughout a vast majority of the cutscenes that play. I’m going to wrap it up here for part one of this series. There will probably be two parts, for the bosses, just so you don’t get bored of me just yet! I hope I’ve enlightened you, and you’ve found it interesting! Take care, see you in the next one.
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