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Story 2 of depression/anxiety issues

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Crafty Lemon


Hi again anyone who reads this.

This takes place 1 year after the events of the first post

Backstory - every single day in school i was bullied, outside of school barring my best friend there was 2 other friends (using the term loosely) they were friends when it suited them and would make fun of me outside of school - tangent - there was this group of boys that were particularly offended by my existence and cracked jokes at my expense every god damn day, context i was a fat nerdy goth with glasses now im just fat nerdy and wear glasses, these boy were never violent just mean hatred filled verbal abuse throwing monsters.


My school had a drama production of midsummers night dream and i played oberon king of the faeries - ofcourse led to jokes and rumors of being gay - fyi im not nothing wrong with that sexuality but just not my batting field.


Cut to the 3rd night of the play - went on for 1 full week. Me and my friends (including the crush from the first post) were walking back to our homes, its about 8 pm and very dark - was that time of year in the UK when it was pitch black early, as we are walking we hear footsteps behind us and the odd obscenity being thrown our way - for me this was the norm untill i got to the safety of my home, they get closer and closer until they are basically walking alongside all the while insulting and swearing at us belittling us to the point where we think to run off (which would of been smart) we didnt and stupidity took over and we threw insults back at them..... BIG MISTAKE. They start pushing us around and trying to trip us up and throw bits of dirt at us from off the ground I finally snap and start shouting at them - they say stand up to a bully and he'll back down.... They are wrong. Smallest of the group rushes towards me with something in his hand, shiny...... Dawned on me.... It was a knife puts it up to my throat and carries out threatening to kill me all the while my friends are petrified and the girls are crying and distraught.


I dunno if he changed his mind or a car driving past with the headlights on, he lowered the knife backed up and threw more insults and dirt and got the group of guys to walk away.


Following this the next day i try to inform a teacher and they dismiss it so during maths class i approach the class with the knife guy in - at this point i got to know alot of the teachers and were friends (as much as you can be with a point of authority) asked to speak to the student outside, unbelievably the teacher says yes.


Knife guy comes up and leans on the wall outside the door and basically i start asking him what the hell was wrong with him - hes starts laughing in my face calling me a baby... I saw red. I grabbed him by the throat (not knowingly) lifted him up the wall all the while he is pummelling me with punches i dont flinch and keep choking him.... This last in my head a good minute, the teacher comes out pulls me off him and separates us whilst getting a head of year.


Because this was so out of character for me and iv never caused a problem i wasnt expelled or excluded and got to stay in the play. I explained why i did what i did, their reply to this was because the knife incident happened outside of school they cant take any action on it


Tl;dr - bullies take it to far and threaten me with a knife and basically nothing happens to them.





P.s as always if you have anything to say feel free i accept all responses and this is just to vent and get things off my mind that eat at me every day not meant for sympathy.


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