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Zero to Hero - The Journey of No Man's Sky


It doesn't seem too long ago since Hello Games was being burned at the stake by an incensed online mob following the initial of release of No Man's Sky, and I have to admit I was pretty disappointed myself. But fast forward two and half years and the sentiment has changed: The NMS community is positive, the developers are sincere and the outlook is promising.

What caused this change? How did NMS go from hot garbage to hawt shit? Here's my thoughts:


The Hype Machine

I think one of the core issues with the NMS launch was a combination of insatiable online hype along with a pressured development studio wanting to maximise that opportunity. Rewind to before the games launch and Hello Games had been subtly introducing themselves into the gaming arena through events, particularly their announcement at the VGX awards back in 2013. Soon after they had caught the attention of Sony, who's keen eyes saw the gaming market was craving a new-gen space sim. Sony ultimately funded and help market NMS in preparation for it's launch, and as an indie studio Hello Games couldn't be happier.

This is where I believe things went awry: News and features for NMS began to roll our frequently throughout 2015, culminating in a released date being announced at Paris Game Week during a Sony press conference. From that time things went shaky. NMS dropped from further expos and event with Sean Murray (Lead Director for NMS) stating he wants to devote more time to polish.: "we get one shot to make this game and we can't mess it up." - The weight of the sentence even more visible now. It was clear from that, and other interviews and tweets that NMS wasn't quite ready. My opinion is that Sony wanted to get first-to-market with a new space sim and ride the hype that was palpable at the time. Hype is great tool for marketing, and just being on reddit and twitter it was clear how excited some people were for this game (especially since preorders had exceeded expectations)

Then the game launched, and quickly people realised large portions of what had been promised were not in the game. Including a fundamental component: multiplayer. The following weeks of the launch NMS was slated and review bombed across the board. Many angry that they had been misled, missold and lied too. On a lot of components these people were correct. To make matters worse, Sean Murray and Hello Games went silent. They stopped tweeting, declined interviews and were non-existent as the hate poured out.


Update, Update, Update

Faced with one of the largest backlashes in the gaming community, Hello Games had a mountain to climb to bring back players and bring back integrity to them and the game. In November 2016 (a couple months after release) they broke their silence and released the Foundations update. This update fixed many of the bugs, fundamental features and components of the game. Received well by many, they managed to claw back a lot of the gamer base that had initially left (steam numbers going from hundreds to thousands).

This seemed to be the new strategy for Hello Games: Full, comprehensive updates, with little to no details announced before they are ready. The subsequent updates started to add a lot of what was promised. 'Pathfinder' added planetary vehicles, 'Atlas Rises' added a new story arc, 'NEXT' (arguably the most important update) added full multiplayer, feighters, enhanced graphics and heaps more. 'Abyss' and 'Visions' added underwater and a wide variety of biomes and environments.

This update schedule seemed to work, with average player base across platforms steadily rising after each update, and all the while Hello Games were cautious with their communication of such updates.


Humbled Devs

The interesting thing to note is how Hello Games have conducted themselves throughout. Let's face it, they screwed up big time at launch and released half a game. But their subsequent attitude has brought NMS to a great place. Other studios and their parent companies may have just moved on (ahem EA), some may have lashed back at the community (ahem Blizzard) but Hello Games listened, they listened to the hate, the feedback and abuse (I mean who sends death/bomb threats to a game studio?).

Since then they have been quiet and confident with what they have been working on, showing only fully built features and communicating honestly and openly


What's Next

The future looks promising for No Man's Sky. Sean has promised heaps of updates to fully deliver on the vision that was promised, and the upcoming update shows this with support for VR. Further updates are promised, and the player base has been increasing over time. The response from the community has also been positive, online sentiment has shifted. Old players are returning, and things are on the up.

I think this is a tale a lot of studios and publishers should learn from. Whether the lesson is not rushing to market, or managing your game post-launch, Hello Games set an example in delivering what is promised.


NB This post probably sounds like I'm a Hello Games shill, but honestly I'm impressed with what they have done





I’ve always said that a solid intro sets the tone for a game, and many games have tried different ways to bring the player into their world, whether by an opening cinematic, or a playable introduction.


Here is my personal, top 5 video game openings and all time:


5: Dawn of War


I’m a huge fan of DoW one (he others.. not so much) and I’ll always remember the opening cinematic of Dawn of War, featuring an epic clash between Blood Ravens and Orks on the crest of a war torn landscape. Ridiculously noisy, violent and cool, as anything Warhammer 40k should be.



4: Fallout 3


I may be stretching what people consider an ‘intro’ here but everything from hitting New Game right through to stepping out the vault for the first time is… incredible. Mega-atmospheric, interesting take on character creation, and the vista of the wasteland gave me goosebumps when I first played it.

Oh and Ron Perlman saying ‘War. War never changes’... awesome.



3: Medal of Honour: Frontline 


Looking back, it might be hard to imagine for some people, but the d-day landing intro to Frontline was a chill-inducing frantic introduction to the game. Apparently the developers wanted to replicate the Saving Private Ryan introduction, and back then, they pretty much nailed it.


2: Bioshock


Controversially I’ve never been the biggest Bioshock fan (I know, I know). The first Bioshock is the only one I’ve completed. That said, it has an incredible opening sequence. From frantically fleeing the plane crash to laying your eyes on Rapture for the first time.


1: Half-Life


Most if you know how much I love Half-Life, so it’s little surprise I’ve included the Half-Life introduction here (Though I could have gone for HL2 instead..). A simple concept, you’re on a tram ride through a secret, high-tech base, but the opening gives you an overwhelming sense of scale, detail.. And ominous foreboding as you approach your sector. This blew me away when I first played it, and the Black Mesa remake is equally impressive. If you haven’t tried Black Mesa, you have to!


There you have it, my top 5 openings, what did I miss?





Woof woof Everyone!

Hope you're ready for some hard hitting gaming journalism!

I recently watched this Inside Gaming episode that did a feature on the best dogs in video games. Whilst I agreed with some, I disagreed with others! So here's the HarlanTV take on the Top 5 dogs in video games!


1) Lesser Dog - Undertale

First up is a dog from (IMO) one of the best video games of all time, Undertale. Lesser Dog is an NPC that crops up as the player progresses through Snowdin Forrest. This adorable pup is a member of the Royal Guard, and sports a sword and shield. But somehow that just makes the little fella look even cuter. What's great about Lesser dog is how you interact with it, if you choose to pet the dog, his neck grows. And if you keep petting it, his head grows off the screen in excitement. Lesser Dog is a good dog.


2) K.K. Slider - Animal Crossing

I dare you to find me a cooler dog than K.K. Slider. A guitar playing, knowledge spitting groove hound who chills all day in Animal Crossing. More recently the dude has expanded is musical skills to DJ'ing in Club LOL in Animal Crossing New Leaf. Tunes aside, K.K.Slider has some pretty strong thoughts on capitalism: “Those industry fat cats try to put a price on my music, but it wants to be free.”. I'm already looking forward to see how K.K. will pop up in Animal Crossing New Horizons, he's certain to have some sweet new jams. K.K. Slider is a good dog.


 3) All Dogs - Nintendogs

I like to think that at Nintendo so dude was like "you know what people like? Dogs. Petting them, playing with them. Just, dogs", and thus began development of Nintendogs. This adorable game series now has installments featuring Chihuahuas, Labradors, Dachshunds and even Shiba Inu's. Name me a more iconic video game series than that?? Okay maybe don't. Nintendogs offers the modern, time-poor gamer with a way of owning, training and petting their very own dog, and I'll be damned if you don't like the game. All Nintendogs are good dogs.


 4) General Pepper - StarFox

Some dogs do tricks, some dogs look cute, some dogs run fast. This one commands the Cornerian Army and works with a mercenary squad of elite fighter pilots known as StarFox. Awww. Seriously though this badass has been through the mill, seen his forces overrun by the Androssian Army and fought during the Aparoid Invasion. All whilst being a cool ass dog. Seriously though if I was going to choose a dog to be my commander, it would be General Pepper all day long. General Pepper is a good dog.


 5) Sam - Sam & Max

Sam & Max Hit The Road was a classic adventure game from when LucasArts was in its prime. A game I definitely recommend. And what's better, one the key characters is a damn dog detective. Sam, is a cool, level heading freelance police detective solving crimes with his hot headed partner Max. Sam loves his ice-cream and carries around a huge revolver. Ya know, like most dogs do. He also has a way with words leading to one of my favourite quotes: "Holy jumping mother o' god in a side-car with chocolate jimmies and a lobster bib! We're on our way!". Sam is a good dog.



There you have it, my top 5 dogs in video games. Disagree with any of them? Well SCREW YOU THEY ARE GOOD DOGS. Nah, I'm joking, drop a comment below and let me know who I should have included!

Harlan x


Let's give Epic Games a break


Hey guys.. give Epic Games a break yeah?


If there's one thing I don't like about internet culture it's their knee jerk reaction to most ideas/news/announcements. The majority of the time it's a flip of a coin when a new trailer or announcement is made, then the hive-mind just regurgitates what the initial reaction was. Case in point: Epic Games Store. Since its announcement it has been greeted with sighs and tuts, and a general consensus of 'Why are doing this'. This rhetoric is compounded when a major (or indie) title announces it will be launching on the platform. My thoughts are.. who gives a shit?

First to market doesn't mean best in market

First of all, let's take a look at the state of the current offering on PC: Steam. (Alright yeah Origin too but that's not even worth the effort). Honestly speaking, Steam is tired. Big, tired and clunky. I honestly can't remember the last time I thought 'Oh that's a neat new feature' when perusing Steam. The funny thing is I predicted this ages ago. The same goes for any business that is first to market with a game-changing product or service, I've worked IRL with several businesses like this. It's rapid expansion leading marketing dominance, but when you sit at the top unchallenged for a while, you go stale. Being challenged makes you innovate. I'm far from a capitalist but the mantra of competition drives innovation does ring true in some cases. This being one. So isn't it about time we had a challenger game publishing platform? Something that's going to shake things up, hopefully for the benefit of us?

I'm going to caveat the above point by saying Epic Game Store is far from 'parity' with steam. It's missing a lot of core functionality (i.e. cloud save). But its roadmap is ambitious.


Better deal for developers?

Okay, so we might get better more streamlined gaming services, what about the developers? The arguably larger benefit of more choice, is improved revenue share for developers. Currently Steams revenue model is 70/30 whilst Epic is offering more to devs with a model of 88/12. Immediately the benefit to independent studios is massive. I've seen some arguments that Epic are buying their way into the market... well of course they are! That's the only way you would be able to compete with the behemoth that is Steam. And if it's more money in studios pockets well that's cool with me.


Exclusive or divisive

The crux of the Epic Games Store hate I think can be traced to the issue of exclusive titles. To be fair, I can understand why there has been frustration here. Essentially Epic Games has been on a frenzy of securing exclusives for their store. That in itself I don't have an issue with, and if we are real, it's to be expected. The issue is when developers renege on their promises of delivering the game to steam, and secure an Epic Store exclusive. One example is Metro Exodus. Steam had already begun taking preorders on Metro Exodus which subsequently had to be refunded.

Okay, the above is a fair point, but I don’t think it warrants the amount of hate Epic Games has received.


The China Connection

This is where the hive-mind paranoia came into its own. Users on Reddit crawled through the Epic Game Stores code and came up with some anomalies. Rather than ask Epic or consider sensible options, they ‘outed’ Epic on Reddit saying it’s Chinese Spyware tracking all your movements. It turns out the code was used to track revenue for UE4 game assets…

This outrage was compounded by the fact that Epic Games had received huge amounts of funding from Tencent, a pretty fucking huge Chinese omni-corporation. Okay yeah, Tencent themselves are pretty scary, but they also invest in EVERYTHING. Ubisoft and Riot have had funding from Tencent. Hell even SnapChat and Elite:Dangerous have had money off them. So it’s a bit odd to get outraged for this?

The Real Reason

Let’s face it. The real reason why people have a problem with Epic Game Store is this: Fortnite is one of the most successful companies of all times, and also the most ‘hated’ by ‘real’ gamers. Hating on stuff is a meme. So it’s easy to paint a target on the company that produced it, and try to taint anything else they try e.g. Epic Games Store. Create memes from it, and circlejerk behind its back.

Time to grow up. Give Epic Games Store a chance. It might suck, it might make Steam be better. Who knows. But it doesn’t deserve the hate.





🎉 Happy New Year! 🎉

(I can still say that right?)

I wanted to share a quick post about what to expect from myself this year in terms of content and other fun things. 2019 was a great year for streaming and YouTube. But I like to start each year with a plan. So here it is!


The most obvious change you will have seen is a complete channel rebrand! This year to celebrate the launch of Cyberpunk 2077 I've gone completely cyberpunk/futurist style with logos, channel branding and more. Think you'll agree it looks great! I can't claim all the credit for the branding. I got the animation packages from AEJuice and fonts from Creative Market, then assembled by me in After
Effect, Photoshop and PremierPro


My content plan for the year is going to change focus in some areas:

Streaming - Weekly streams will continue, with a fluid schedule. My game choices will start to include some classic and retro cyberpunkish games. I'm also refreshing my sub-perks with more exciting things so look out for that soon!

Blogs - I'll be posting on writers block more regularly, on a variety of topics, so make sure you follow and check back here!

Other Ember Content - I'll be contributing more to other content on Ember such as the No Man's Sky community and others!


I'm putting my YouTube channel on hold for the time being. It's a lot of work, and after the above it doesn't leave much time to give it the attention it deserves. So going to focus on other areas. That's not to say I won't do any videos, just not for the time being.

Collaborations and More

There are more exciting things in the works, with some fun collaborations that I can't share too much on at the moment. Some of them as part of HarlanTV and some of them brand new. If you do want to collab over anything (streams, videos, writing) then just give me a shout.


Here's to a great 2020!



EA's Last Chance - A Star Wars Story


Star Wars: Jedi Fallen Order is EA's last chance at keeping the Star Wars license. Here's why I think so:


A Lucrative Licence

Imagine having exclusive rights to one of the largest franchises in entertainment history. Now imagine everyone hating you for this fact. This is EA. They have their hands on a multi-billion dollar monster of a franchise, and one that is growing year on year. Since Disney's $4 billion purchase of LucasFilm back in 2012, they have laid out a grand plan from a cinematic perspective. This includes the new Skywalker story arc, the stand alone Star Wars stories (which IMO are brilliant) and the upcoming series The Mandalorian. A very punchy production schedule, and one that is delivering a medium to high standard of content. But what about the games? 


George being George

EA has held the license for Star Wars since 2013, and since then has produced a sorry 2 "full" star wars games: Battlefront 1 and 2. Oh and a heap of mobile cash-grab garbage that aren't even worth commenting on. Whilst Battlefront 1 was average at best, we all know Battlefront 2 was a complete mess. A game some fundamentally intertwined in monetisation that 2 years later they are still trying to untangle the mess they created with updates and additional content (which apparently are not bad, more on that in the future).

So where does this leave EA and the Star Wars franchise? The conditions of the Star Wars license sets out and expiration date of 2023, so with less that 4 years to go, EA have really yet to prove themselves as a worthy developer to produce an experience fans can truly enjoy. Experiences such as Tie Fighter, Rogue Squadron or Jedi Knight 2. The clock is ticking, and EA need to act.

Graveyard of Games

EA could have been in a better position, but for reasons that still aren't clear, they have cancelled a number of Star Wars projects which from the little information we have, sounded promising. For example Star Wars 1313 was slated as a gritty bounty hunter title set on Coruscant. It had some impressive concept art and even had an E3 demo that sent the Star Wars fanbase in bit of a spin. 


"It's as if a million fanboys cried out when 1313 got cancelled"

Another example was 'Project RagTag' which had the talented Amy Hennig (Uncharted) attached to it, and was planned to be produced by Visceral Studios. That was however, until EA decided to put a bullet in Visceral's head, and the game was dusted.

Lessons Learned?

Pressure is certainly mounting on EA to produce a Star Wars game that does the franchise justice and appeals to actual fans. And with the 2023 deadline looming on the horizon, rumors have already started spreading that Disney will not be renewing their contract. To me, it no longer makes much sense to a behemoth like Disney to outsource work like this. Not when they can whip up a game studio in no time with the seemingly endless resources they have.

So enter stage left Star Wars: Jedi Fallen Order. Produced by Respawn (Apex Legends), and slated for release in November (to captialise on the movie hype at the time). Jedi Fallen Order is seemingly EA's last and largest chance at retaining the license, and also producing a worthy Star Wars game. The marketing to date has been amusingly informative. Developers have repeatedly stressed that it is a single player game, with no loot boxes and no micro-transactions. They are obviously eager to regain trust in fans who were heavily burnt by the Battlefront 2 debacle. In fact Respawn have been eager to point out that EA's involvement has been minimal. It's a hilarious state of affairs when studios are distancing themselves from their own publisher to ensure players stay interested.


A last hope?

So have EA learned their lesson from Battlefront 2? Only time will tell when Jedi Fallen Order releases later this year. The signs are promising, and EA might even get to keep the franchise should it be a success. But I'm sure you and many others will agree with me when I say, that is not a good thing. Which leaves us in a predicament, we want a good game, but we also don't want EA to keep the license. We shall just have to wait and see what Disney decides.

May the force be with us








Do genre's matter anymore?


(NB: This is a weird write up/observation/train of thought, a random subject I was thinking about on the train the other day...)


Genres are a funny thing right? How many times has someone asked you what type of music do you like, expecting you to respond with an overall genre: "oh rock, indie, ya know". Personally I don't really like that question, or rather, I don't understand it. My Spotify playlists have everything from classical to rock to hard techno. So I normally just say "everything.. anything I like".

Looking at the music industry, it's safe to say that over the past 15 years, you have seem genre's merging, being mashed up and toyed with to create something new. Electronic artists coupling with rock guitarists and epic drums. Brass bands with drum and bass rhythms (see London Elektricity Big Band). It seems to be a natural progression for the music industry, as it strives to create a new sound, or even a new genre by splicing two together. It works too, look at Daft Punk and Nile Rodgers - Get Lucky.

You can see the same happening in gaming too. Most obvious and long standing example is Action RPG, very popular right now and a term associated with big AAA titles. It would always be a natural progression of games to head into genre busting teriotaty as systems get more powerful, and gamers want more creative content.

My question is: do we need genres?

As genres merge, evolve, and accelerate over time, what use is defining games by genres. I understand the need to classify games in a broad strokes fashion. Human's LOVE to categorise things. It's an actual neurological urge. It helps the brains organise data, and make associations. My problem with that is, does it stifle creativity? 

I recently did a training at work, and part of it looked at 'Rivers of thinking'. Basically if you work in a certain way, or think in a repeated fashion, you form deep rivers of thinking. Meaning that you form strong associations between topics and data. However if you want to change those rivers of thinking (aka think outside the box), the deeper they are the harder it is to do.  What am I telling you this? I think that defining genres for games from the outset formulates deep rivers of thinking, and stifles creativity.

Now, if I had done research for this piece, I would have spoken to a dev or two, and get their opinions or even coping mechanisms, to see how they approach this. But following some game developments in the past I commonly see 'we wanted to created a space sim so that's what we did'. Is that really the best approach? Why confine yourself to rules from the off? Why not have a story, a  concept, a piece of art, and progress from there? I understand the technical implications would be more difficult, but if devs want to be truly creative, it wouldn't be a bad idea. Let the genre develop over time.


Waffle over, I'll leave you with this: I want a Warhammer 40k RTS (like dawn of war) but you can switch to an on field commander to control FPS style. Devs.. GO





Delay me baby!

Why is game development like Northern trains? They’re always delayed!


*waits for laughter to subside*


An interesting trend has been emerging. Most major anticipated titles for 2020 have announced some sort of delay to their scheduled release date. To the point that fans have dreaded any tweet or blog post that begins with the words “Announcement regarding game xx”. Those ominous words have already been linked to delays of Doom: Eternal, Cyberpunk 2077, Animal Crossing: New Horizons, Final Fantasy 7 Remake and Last of Us Part 2 (to name a few). Why are we seeing this unprecedented wave of delays?

There’s probably a few reasons, but largely you can probably attribute it to some of the more high profile ‘failures’ of recent launches. Look at Anthem, No Man’s Sky and Fallout 76. Three games clearly unfinished at launch, and on the receiving end of the merciless wrath from the gaming community. You can see from those examples why studios, with titles that already have anticipation building, to be nervous at the thought of launching an unfinished product. We have seen it time again how unforgiving reviewers, fans and communities can be to botched launches. So why risk that type of backlash when conversely communities are receptive to open communication about the status of a games development. But for the studios themselves, is delaying a launch detrimental in other ways?

Studios tied to larger publishers often find themselves pressured to launch games on time to satisfy shareholders rather than fans. But which is more beneficial to share price, delaying, or launching a game prematurely:


Here’s CD Projekt Red's stock price, highlighted is the date they announced the delay. A slight decrease, but easily recovered.


Here’s EA’s stock price, highlighted is the Anthem release date, again as slight decrease but it was easily recovered.

What can we take away from this? Delaying a game has a negligible impact on share price. Important to note that EA’s stock price is a reflection of all its properties and titles, whereas CD Projekt Red is solely a reflection of its current titles. Okay so share price isn’t impacted (much), what else is?

A potential downside of delaying a game is the scary C word (not that one). Crunch. Delaying a game is a clear sign that development needs more time, and let’s face it, the devs will never have enough time to completely polish a game in this competitive gaming environment. Which means sadly, a delayed game will likely mean months more crunch time for developers. I think it’s naive to have the opinion that delaying will alleviate crunch, because sadly that is the nature of modern game development.

In conclusion, I welcome more honest communication from studios, and a desire to turn out complete finished articles. But whilst this is good for us gaming fans, consider the human impact of devs working overtime to meet these lofty goals. Finding a balance between realistic release dates, and satisfying the gaming communities is something studios will continue to juggle for some time.


Thoughts and comments (or grammatical errors)? Leave them below.



Broken: A No Man's Sky Short Story


Alarms ring out. A disconnected voice is speaking. It could be my voice. Air is moving. Rushing? My head throbs. There are lights. Rings of lights through squinted eyes. I try to move. Moving hurts. Everything hurts. What is that noise? Focus. I need to focus.


I close my eyes, I will adjust my eyesight later. First, let’s see what part of me works, then I’ll deal with everything else. I move my toes and feet, wiggling at first then raising them to check if they function,  “phew” I breathe. Oh, I can talk too, okay this is good, let’s see what else I can do. I move my right hand upwards, heavy, sore, but functional. I try to repeat the same with my left, but a sharp pain fires up to my shoulder in response. The pain doesn’t subside. This is less good. How do I turn off this damn alarm?


I open my eyes slowly to adjust to the brightness, a strong glaring sunlight. Colours too. I can see an array of colours, some near, some in the distance. I try to focus on the colours and shapes closest to me. Pulsating in a reddish hue I read the words ‘Life Support Critical - Suit Breach Detected’. I’m wearing a helmet, and a suit, yes, an exosuit, my exosuit, I think.


I roll my head to my left to try and identify the source of the pain. An unnaturally smooth object blocked my view, curved and sharp like a broken metallic eggshell. It was crushing my left arm. The mere sight kicked the rest of my senses online, adrenaline flooded my body. My arm is crushed and my suit is probably punctured. I need to act. Now.


Trying to lift the fragment with my right arm is useless. The object's surface is so smooth it is hard to get any purchase with a single gloved hand, not to mention it is damn heavy. I need a lever. Reluctantly I lean up as much as my body would allow to see if there is anything usable at hand. I gasp.


For a moment, the pain, alarms, chaos seems to dull as I soak up the panorama before me. It is a landscape of spectrum; wild and teaming with vegetation and life of which I have never seen before (I don't think so anyway…). Enormous trees with fat, bulbous trunks clustered the rims of rolling, uninterrupted hills. Thick green leaves branch off the trunks and hang so low they meet the grass. Incredible flowing red grass, for miles it seems. The rippling grass gives off a silver tint from the reflecting sunlight. Overhead in the bright blue sky a flock of… something wheels through wispy clouds, I could hear them calling out. The vista stretches on, seemingly unbroken, to the horizon.


The moment quickly passes as the searing pain grows in my arm. I look to my right, nothing immediately passable as a lever in sight, just that sea of red wavering grass. I look down at my feet, another fragment within grasp. I use my heel to slide the piece to my free hand. It was flatter than the problematic fragment, around 3 feet in length, and not very thick. It will have to work. 


Okay, the next challenge: A fulcrum. There is nothing immediately around the crushing fragment that I could wedge my lever against. I roll to see what is in the vicinity that could be usable, my arm screams at me to roll back. I close my eyes. Maybe I shouldn’t move this fragment, what if I bleed out? Or my suit decompresses? I guess if that was going to happen it would have happened by now. The moving air seems to have stabilised, which likely means I’ve equalised with this planet's atmosphere, and the atmosphere isn’t bad (for now, I could just be suffocating more slowly, or breathing in toxins). No, I need to move this fragment. Think.


My left arm seems to be stretched out to the side, underneath the fragment which lays across it. In my hand on my right I have the second longer, but thinner, fragment to serve as my lever. Ah. I have had a fulcrum all along. My head. Well, my helmet to be precise. I can slide the lever under the fragment to my left, rest the lever on the visor of my helmet (and hope it holds...) and pull down with my right hand. I follow the steps of my plan, and ready myself to pull the lever downwards. The fragment resting on my helmet blocks most of my view of the sky and it’s creatures above. I shift my grip on the lever a couple of times to find a comfortable but effective pulling point at the furthest end. And pull.


Pain rings back up my arms as the fragment shifts slightly, it’s working. But I need to pull harder. My grip tightens as I tense my whole body into the pull. *Tink* Oh no. *Tink Tink* No. Small fractures appear in the top right of my helmet. *Tink Tink Tink*  More now. On the left too. Webbing out. If I can just shift my arm free. I turn my face away from the (reinforced..?) glass of my helmet visor and pull down with the weight of my whole body. *Thunk*


I gasp for breath as I roll over to see my freed arm. Through my spiderwebbed broken helmet visor I inspect the damage. Broken definitely but amazingly little blood. I’ll need to reset the bone, but first I need to catch my breath.


After a moment I hazily climb to my feet, clutching my fragile left arm. My head swims and it takes me a moment to steady myself. I fumble at the buttons on the exosuit to quiet the alarms and warnings (they aren’t helping). Then a question: How did I get here? The question forms in my mind and whilst I knew I had the answer… I couldn’t grasp it. My head is hazy, like a heavy fog blocks the way to the answer. Let's start with what I know: My name… My stomach sinks. My name… what is my name? I must know that? I do know it. It’s in my mind but it’s blocked, blocked by the fog, the static.


I get queasy with trying to grasp the answers, my body shivers. It must be amnesia.. Right? As I finish that thought my eyes focus on back onto the landscape around. The rolling red grass and the barrell-like trees. It seems strangely familiar. My eyes stop on a path, a scorched path. Red grass tainted black by fire. Still smoldering in places. The scorched path stretches on for what must be a half a mile, littered with anomalous metallic debris. The destructive path and it’s debris seem to converge on a point. An object. A ship. My ship.


My body straightens at the sight of the crashed shuttle. Plumes of smoke and ripped bulkheads. The ship is a wreck, but it’s my ship. My ship and my journey. The questions on how I got here and who I am still echo in my mind, but I know that is my ship. My ship and my sky. The pain in my arm seems to ease, I start to walk the scorched path to my ship. The ship I will fix. I will fix my arm, I will fix this ship, I will fix… This is what I must do. I breathe easier, more certain of my task. I know the answers I seek are in the sky. My eyes look towards the creatures rolling through the clouds. My sky.



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